Merry Christmas
Today is my last day living in Smithers. Tomorrow at 11 o’clock I am getting on a plane to start my new life, whether I am ready or not. I have received my course schedule, I am signed up for orientation, my room is almost ready, my bags are almost packed. I guess there is only so much I myself can do to make sure that is coming year goes well, the rest I must put in God’s hands. Anyways, since I am starting a new chapter in my life I figured I would start a new blog too.
http://thruthesehazeleyes.wordpress.com/
I will be blogging there starting boxing day.
Merry Christmas Everyone!
Packing
It’s ridiculous how many people read my blog. Oh well I feel better. Anyways with just over 2 weeks left to go (So crazy) I have slowly started to pack my stuff and slowly I am placing my life into two suit cases. Leaving behind whatever I can currently live without. Things like books, picture frames and furniture. As as I pack my room starts to look bare. It’s weird. Trying to fit my life into two suit cases. Being 22, one would think that I would have more things that I would need to take with me. But then again they are only things and I have lived without them once, I can do it again. Thats one thing I have start to realize to. I will have to learn to live off the bare necessities. I will no long have a steady income I so I cant just buy things when I want them. I will have to really need it. I will also no long be living with my parents where the pantry is always full and the laundry is always clean. I am becoming Independent. Scary thought! Anyways, until then I have to try stay focused when Im at work. HAHA
24 More Days
There is less then a month until I leave and I can’t believe how fast time is going. I still have, at least I think I have, so much to do. It feels like just yesterday when I was wondering around Fanshawe College trying to guess what building my classes would be in. Now, in just over a month, I will be starting my courses! Im so excited about it, which Im sure some of you are finding kinda odd. If this was just every day school like highschool, then I wouldnt be so excited but this isn’t. Im going to school for something I really enjoy doing (and hopefully still enjoy doing once Im done) Im excited about learning all the things my program has to offer. Sure there will be some courses Im going to hate but Im not expecting to be smooth sailing all the way through. Im also nervous about starting school, its been 5 years since I have been in school and I have a feeling getting back in the routine of being a student again will be a bumpy transition. Im praying that everything goes well.
Year-round Christmas!
The sweet sound of Christmas music fills my room, most people call me nuts and crazy for playing it so soon. But there is something so soothing about Christmas. I mean real Christmas music, the type that keeps Christ in Christmas. Sure Frosty the Snowman and Rudolf the Red Nose Reindeer are good songs, but song like Silent Night, Angels We Have Heard on High, The First Noel and What Child is This? (to name a few) are the songs that make me smile and feel all warm and cozy inside. They remind me now bless I really am. Christ, out of pure love, came to earth, to this sad, evil and destructive earth, to save us. We, who do not deserve a second glance. Not only that but he came in the most humbling way. As a baby. Im sure if he wanted to he could have come in brilliance and glory, showing the whole world who he really was. But no, he chose this way. He gave up his heavenly standing to come to earth, to our level, to save us. Blessed! We are very blessed. Another amazing thing about this time of year is the people around you. I dont know about other towns or cities but Smithers seems to awaking around Christmas time. People are cheerful and greet others with smiles. There is kindness almost everywhere. It’s refreshing to know that people still know how to perform acts of courtesy. The odd thing about it all is we only set aside one time a year to remember this amazing fact. Our “good will towards all men” only last till December 31, if that sometimes. As soon as the Christmas decorations are put away and the Christmas music is put back on the shelve for other 330 days of the year. People continue on with their lives. Forgetting the blessing that we where celebrating just days or weeks before. I vote for the Christmas spirit to last all year-round. Okay, so obviously Im not talking about having the Christmas decorations and the Christmas music around all year-round. But the Christmas spirit doesnt have to leave. Christ didn’t come to save us for just one month out of the whole year. He came to save us all year-round, so why can we remember that all year-round?
Nervcited
So there is now no turning back. Wether I like it or not now I am committed. My car is in Ontario. Next the beginning of November I will be getting a letter from Fanshawe College with all the paper work. My payment for school will be coming out of my bank account sometime after that. After I have less than two months to get my stuff in order. Then around December 26 – 28 I will be, with tears in my eyes, hugging my family goodbye and getting on the plane to Ontario. After spending 12 hours (give or take) on planes and in airport terminals, I will be stepping off the plane ready (hopefully) to start my new life in London, Ontario My new home for the next year or so. Im…. so nervcited. (A combination of nervous and excited) So many new things and different things. One like not living with my parents, not even close to my parents. Having to do things myself. It is not like I will be completely alone. One of the reasons I picked Fanshawe College was because it was in London. I have family everywhere. An aunt and uncle who will be across town from me (I will probably be visiting her alot), I also have my sister, brother-in-law and my grandparents an 1 – 1 1/2 drive away. (I will be visiting them alot too) Any many other relatives around the area. Another is going back to school and getting back in the groove of being a student. (I wasn’t really good at that in high school so Im praying Im that college is different) Finally I get to truly figure out who I am (really excited for that). I really don’t feel like a 22 year old responsable brave adult, I feel like a scared teen who just wants to curl up in her bed and wish that the nasty churning in her stomach would go away. The churning you get in your stomach just before you go a big trip or take a huge step in your life. (Inhale, exhale) Wether I like it or not its almost time for me to step out my comfort zone and all that is involed with that. (Smiles)
4 Months.
In 4 months I am leaving my home town and my family and heading over to Ontario and Im not sure how I feel about that. Of course Im excited. Who wouldn’t be. Moving from home, going to school for something I enjoy, finally becoming my own person. But then there are times where my stomach turns and I start to worry and doubt. There are so many unknowns on my path and it scares me. If you ask anyone who really knows me I dont deal with the unknown really well. I like plans and I like to be organized before I jump into everything. Some people jump in feet first, I like to test the waters first, especially when it comes to the big things. When it comes to moving and going to school. But it feels like Im jumping in feet first and without looking to make sure the water was deep enough. First there is the thrill of the wind blowing through your hair and the feeling of complete weightlessness but halfway through the jump you start to think it was a stupid thing to do but there is no going back. Right now Im at that point but Im praying that when I land the water will be cool and refreshing. Until then the only think I can do is enjoy this new and exciting feeling and pray that God will lead me in the right direction.
Way to wreck a good piece of art
Imagine you are in an art gallery, walking around gazing at the amazing works of art. Von Gogh, Da Vinci, Claude Monte, Pablo Picasso. So on and so forth. Turning a corner you notice something a out of place on the “Last Supper”. Getting closer you see that someone added to the painting, they drew on it with red marker. Shocked and astonished you look around to tell someone but down the room a little bit you see someone doing the same thing to “The Starry Night”. Looking around to all the paintings you noticed someone has tarnished most of the artwork but no one seems to be aware of this vandalism. Now with this in mind look at the world around you. Nature is one of the most amazing pieces of art that no one can duplicate, the colors are so vivd and clear. Someone has tainted this beauty. It is hard to go anywhere to admire this beauty without your view being obstructed by a piece of garage laying among it. If you mention the story about the art gallery to anyone, the person would mostly be shocked and angered for who would want to destroy those amazing art pieces. But no one ever thinks of the earth as art. Is just the place where we live and do with what we want. We use and abuse it. It doesn’t take that much effort to find a garbage can to place your junk and not everything belongs in the garbage. Most items you buy are recyclable. So please do your part and help keep this amazing piece of art beautiful and in its original state!
Swinging
Your an adult now… its amazing how those words change you like that. Once you hit yours 20′s suddenly you must become responsible, you must know where you are going and how you are getting there. You whole life should be in order. But really how many people in that age group can say they know exactly what they want to get out of this life and they know how to get it? I myself only just figured out which direction I want to take my life. But I cant honestly say that I am always sure about it. There are days where I wonder if I am really cut out for it and worry that when I get to school I will find out that it really wasn’t ever my thing. Im afraid of being a failure and still not knowing my place in this world when I am 30. So on days where the responsibilities and stress of being an adult are weighting down on my shoulders I swing.
Down from where I live there is a school with swings, so I walk down and swing on the swings. I love the feeling on the wind on my face as I go back and forth. Then I close my eyes and imagine myself at 5 again with pigtails in my hair. Living life free and easy, where my biggest worry is the color of crayons we will use or whether I will wear a yellow or blue shirt. For 20-30 minutes my life becomes stress-free and all my worries disappear, all I have to do is swing. Once I am done swinging the responsibilities of the adult world seem a little easier to deal with. Now don’t get me wrong I love being an adult but there are times when you start to doubt yourself and everything seems to be going wrong. My solution for this is to swing, it doesnt make it all go away but I sure makes you feel better!
Silence is Golden
As I sit here in my bed at 12:30 in the morning in my big empty house those are the words that pop into my head. Silence is golden. For some people it is often followed by “It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool, than open your mouth and prove it” but for me it means something different. Coming from a family of 9 people there are very few times when the house is completely silence. Even now as I type I can hear my dog snoring outside my bedroom door, cars driving down the highway, wind blowing through the trees, my fingers typing on the keys which intern makes me wonder, when is it ever completely silence. Will there ever be a time when you can stand there and think “Finally some silence”. Think about it. What is the meaning of silence. When you look up the word silence in the dictionary the first definition that comes up is “absence of any sound or noise; stillness.” How often can you say that you have had a time where there was an “absence of sound or noise” or when it was “dead quiet”? There is actaully no such thing as silence. No matter where you are there will always be noise or sound. Wether it is the sound of the wind blowing, your dog snoring or yourself breathing. There is always noise around you.
Take Time
Take Time to Think,
It is the source of power.
Take time to Play,
It is the source of perpetual youth.
Take time to Read,
It is the foundation of wisdom.
Take time to Love and to Be Loved,
It is a gift.
Take time to Be Friendly,
It is the road to happiness.
Take time to Laugh,
It is the music of the soul.
Take time to Give,
It is too short a day to be selfish.
Take time to Work,
It is the price of success.
Take time to Do Charity,
It is the key to heaven.
